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May 23, 2009

Before I let myself loose too fast...

Hey!

A look at the stars above remind us that we are not the center of the world, mere specks compared to the greatness of the vastness in the creations God made.

I'm not a big deal at all. I think what would make me great, is if give and share with others my all and all the talents God gave me.

In doing so, in essence I can spread to others His glory, through my actions. I can do my best at this.

Loving isn't about getting, it's about giving. Giving in your all, your happiness, your hopes, your dreams, your wants, your desires to someone so that someone can hopefully take it all and love you for who you are.

Tell me it'll be alright.

-AA

May 17, 2009

Feels right.

HI!

Ever experienced a moment with someone where the vibe/chemistry/feeling that you two shared in a certain situation felt "just right"?

Those don't come so often. I wonder if that means I should try and make sure that certain person doesn't go away.

One day. One person. Some day. Some time. Some where. Some how. Some way. Some time. Some day.

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On a side note:
I can't please everybody. And I give up trying to.

-AA

May 9, 2009

Weight.

Hey, Just a quick one...

I have a lot of weight on my mind. And in my stomach. Lit-rally.

I'm so ready for Sober Grad.

-AA

May 5, 2009

"I can almost see it...

..This dream I'm dreaming"

Top of the evening to you all.

A great thing happened in my life. I've always been a little hesitant about the future honestly. I've never really had a solid and firm plan - as a matter of fact I've never really even had a vague plan. Since I'm almost out of high school, it was finally time for me to try and face the future.

The future I have planned is not solid. I know that, because the future can always change. Life happens, not all things go for your way, and things come up. I understand that. Savoir-faire is necessary in those times ; ).

But let me tell you, it feels great now having atleast planned a future! To just have a sense of direction in my life is so uplifting. Just having a plan, a goal to strive for, makes me hopeful and makes everything I do so much more fun and worth it.

I've discovered a purpose.

: )

With that being said, I can update you all on what's going to be up with me because I'd like to share this.

After I graduate, I will promptly be starting college thereafter (a week after I graduate to be exact). I will be attending and am now currently enrolled at American River College (ARC)! As a junior-college attendee, I will be pursing my AS in Biotechnology, hopefully being able to finish it in 1-year and half instead of two years, to get a jump start on a transfer either to a national college here in the States, or to an International college in the Philippines for nursing.

After a hopeful BS in Nursing, I want to pursue Medical School and become a doctor.

The past few weeks have really opened my eyes to a lot of things, but the choice to become a nurse and/or a doctor w/ a background in biotechnology seems perfect for me. I want to go into research maybe, I don't know.

I want to be able to help people. I know within me it feels right. I don't want to have to look at somebody ill or in pain and not be able to do anything. I want to use my knowledge, skills, care, mind, and heart to make a difference in this world and in the world of others.

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It's not going to be easy for me. I'll have to make a lot of sacrifices. I'll need to be focused. I don't want to mess this up for me any more than I already have. I'm taking a chance on a lot of things, letting a lot of other things go, and hoping for the best, and I'm praying hard.

I want to do my best, and I am willing to make it all happen, and, with all humbleness due respect, I know I can do it, I feel I can do it.

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Tomorrow I have my AP Calc. test. I'm feeling okay about it so I'll just do my best.

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I feel great being able to see a dream. I swear to you I can see it. And the feeling feels right. I can't explain, maybe you can understand, but I'm going to make my dream come true.


-AA