You.

Song: "Ordinary Love" by MYMP
Mood: Okay :)

Hi.

There is probably only one thing that can occupy my mind and completely distract me from everything else that I am doing at the moment. That is thinking about you. This is a blog to you.

I don't know when exactly I'll finally be able to talk with you. I guess there must be some odd reason why I can't have you in my life right now. It's like, I wish you were though because the other things and people in my life aren't too interesting. I think you would be the most interesting person I'd ever meet and talk with. I don't get why I get tired of other people, things, but I never get tired thinking about you. You are pretty special, you know that? I bet you don't, at least not right now.

I don't know what's happening in your life right now. I hope that everything is okay. I bet you're probably stressing about your future as much as I am - or maybe not. Maybe you're already set for your future - you probably know where you want to go and what you want to be when you grow older. I wish I could say the same.

I hope stress doesn't get the best of you. It is for me. I think I'm doing too much honestly. But you, I think you probably strive under that pressure. Haha, or I think you probably don't even have that pressure because you're not a procrastinator at all. You probably are so organized and you probably don't waste time like I do.

You're also probably not very slow, unlike me. I've noticed that about myself, I tend to be very slow when I learn new things and it takes me a while to become not so bad. You probably get things done right the first time.

You also probably have a lot of guys crushing on you. I know that's a fact. There's probably some other dude right now feeling for you as bad as I am, probably even worse than I am. Poor guy. You probably like him right now too. I wonder if you have a boyfriend right now. It's okay if you do. Just don't hurt the poor guys heart too bad. Help him to grow, impact his life so that he can find his true love. I'm sure that your an amazing girlfriend and person to be with. Just make sure you know that he's not the only guy out there, and there probably is somebody better... (Ahem)

I wonder if you're afraid to take chances, because I'm not. I also have no shame, I wonder if you're ready for that when you meet me. I hope you're okay with it, I mean I am a little different from most guys. I'm not trying to toot my horn or anything, but I'm that "nice guy" everyone talks about. I'm pretty happy of it too. But don't worry, just because some people don't think I can protect you because I seem too nice...Let me tell you, I promise you when you and I are together I won't let anything or anyone hurt you.

And I know you'll be okay. You might or might not be going through some problems, but if you are, I'm sure you'll be okay. Just cause I'm not with you right now, that just means Jesus is there protecting you and loving you and watching over you right now. Trust me, I know, I ask Him every night to. And I'm pretty confident with that.

A Powerful Song

Song: "Far Away" by Lecrae
Mood: Thankful

Last Tuesday I was blessed to have been at CRC at the right time and the right place. The Christian Campus Ministries were hosting a concert as a benefit and fundraiser for I believe those who were in need for this coming Thanksgiving, and to spread the Good News. I thought it was a great event! On-lookers were passing by, a few looked disgruntled from all praising, but I was completely captivated!

I was greatly inspired and on Fire from those who were hosting the event...people who were close to my age with the CONVICTION that Christ is Lord! They were not afraid to let the world know who they were representing... THIS is what the world NEEDS, more people with the conviction to share the Gospel and Good News of Christ in the secular world... everyone in the world needs to know that Jesus loves them... so much. I pray and hope that one day I may be able to be like those people, on fire with such extreme conviction! It was so powerful to me.. Glory to God!

While I was listening to the concert... I was captivated by this beautiful and powerful song I'd like to share. It's called "Far Away" byLecrae. I never really appreciated the power of Christian Rap/Poetry like this before... As a song it had a great chorus sample, nice beat, and great lyricism... As a testimony to the love of God, it was soul-captivating and powerful so much so that I, honestly, felt every. single. word. of it. I really want to know more Christian Rap/Poetry...if any of you know of any please share it with me... I yearn for more! Here it is for you who would like to listen and be captivated by our Loving God.



Simply great, because it glorifies the greatness and compassion of God.

I'm renewed by this, solaced by the fact that my own struggles are only manifestations of God's great love for me. Glory to God.

God bless you all as you all carry your own crosses.
-Aaron

God is purifying me.

Song: "Fragile Heart" - Cassie (demo)
Mood: Struggling

Have you ever felt like God was testing your faith in Him and His Will for you? Right now I do. And honestly it's extremely hard for me ... it's like all I want to do is fall back on my worries and fears and human reactions up to the point of me wanting to completely quit!

It tough, but I must learn to accept this blessing in disguise. I know that God loves me, and only wants the best for me - and if He brought me to it, I just need to have faith and believe He'll get me through it!

I'm sure God doesn't give us anything we can't handle. When we are at those times we feel like things aren't going our way, I think it's God's way of wanting to purify us and make us better. It's as if He's turning on the heat in our lives to change us, He must want us to change and have more faith in Him and trust Him more!

I know whatever happens to me was willed by Him because He loves me.

God bless you as you all carry your own crosses.

-Aaron

A better person.

Mood: Reflective
Song: "War Of My Life" by John Mayer

For the most part, there's always somewhat of an internal conflict in me. As I'm living, I'm consistently bombarded with decisions to choose from - all essentially asking me this:

"Do this and become a better person, OR do this and be an unchanged/worse person".

I want to always be in a state of mind and heart that keeps me focused to always wanting to be a better person.

I think I've found a way to do so, but I need the help of Jesus.

-Aaron

So much craziness

Hey all :)

Song: "Please Don't Go" - Mike Posner
Mood: Refreshed

SO. It's been too long of a hiatus; and I've been overly too busy. Just a quick recap - full time school (organic chemistry, botany, psychology), no job, St. Maria Goretti Youth and Young Adult leader, aspiring scientist, coffee-lover, and just tryingtokeepittogether!

This past week has been scholastically insane. I had a chemistry exam, a botany quiz, and next week I have my third Botany exam. I really wish I did better this semester; I really liked my class although their so different in approach: Botany and Psychology are taught so vast and broad in their spectrum, and Organic Chemistry is not technically as broad, but so deep (all of course, relative to what I'm used to).

I still really love Cassie Ventura. www.cassieboards.com and www.cassieverse.org on my daily rounds, in addition to FB, twitter, and Words with Friends!

I really want to dance. I had the strongest urge to go out dancing last night! I just wanted to dance it all out and relax - I don't dance much anymore. I've been getting fat. Once I'm done with school for this semester I'm looking forward to an evening with dancing. Dancers... you feel me?

Tomorrow I'll be heading to Reno the whole day for a Marian Conference. It seems like just what I needed. http://www.adoregod.org/2010-conference-flyer/ Thank you Lord.

Shout out to one of my best friends, Ryan McKee. He just dropped out a dope Mutual Complex (You all remember right?) shirt... It's nice to know he's still putting in work with our old crew. We might come back one day you know. lol. MINH, he's getting you your official black crew neck too - only five of those came out and I'm rocking mine. If you all like the shirt and want one, just hit me up - they are really dope :)

Today I've got a study group for Botany I have to go to... the rest of the day will be devoted to studying. Unfortunately, our Worship Night with St. Maria Goretti Youth And Young Adult group was canceled today, but we shall have one next week instead - looking forward to it. :).

Quote of the day:
"A mathematician is a device for turning coffee into theorems" - Dr. Paul Erdos

God bless as you carry your own crosses.

-Aaron