Aftermath

Math is the key word. So! I haven't blogged in a long time. I haven't had much time to myself these past days. It sucks. I think if I counted how much sleep I've had the past weekday (not including Monday b/c it was a holiday), I think it would be about 19 hours. Nineteen divided by four, about five hours a night! Eeek. I haven’t even had a decent dream this past week. And I love my dreams, b/c everything happens that I want to happen in my dreams.

Calculus is hard for me, Chemistry could be better. Microbiology is pretty fun, in fact this weekend I have to get a water sample to cultivate. I’m so excited, I’m going to San Francisco tomorrow, or San Jose…, either way I hope to attain some H20 for Micro. I actually like working with bacteria. It’s not too shabby a gig. I could see myself in some major R&D for something in the future. And last but not least, Econ. It’s okay, I like the teacher. I don’t usually sleep in school, but this past week since I haven’t gotten much sleep, I seem to re-slumber then.

The economy is one whole matter of itself (“You’re so antimatter….”). It’s crazy what’s happening this time of…time. I joke around, but I swear to you if it does happen, the worst economic downturn since the Great Depression, I TERM THESE YEARS “THE GREATER DEPRESSION”…

Okay, so it’s not really a joking matter. But still…

Thought for the blog: Ever had to vie for something? Of course you had. Everyone has to vie for something. I’ve vied for a lot things. But I have to admit. Sometimes I wish that I didn’t have to vie anymore. No I’m not lazy. Just on some nights, I think to myself, “I’m tired of vying”, or “Why vie?”. Sometimes I wish I didn’t have to vie. But who am I to deserve something that’s meant to be vied for?

It seems to me, so long as people vie, people try. But for me, from now on I’ll still try, but I won’t vie. I’m good, homie – I don’t need compliments on my accomplishments. But watch it, haha, what I do to try, you probably won’t be able to vie with.

“Best body temperature: Warm heart, cool head.” – Vintage Park Community Church Billboard.

A beginning to the end.

So as emo burrito this blog sounds, it needs to be said.

Mainstage 2009 was amazing. My dreams came true in many different ways. I've learned so much over the years, it was my turn to take my last bow at the PAC, and now I'm up to step off the stage, up to step down.

It hits. The feeling of accomplishment and nostalgia. At the same time. Just another faucet of Life I guess, but a reoccurring event seems to be "Hold Tight, then Let Go".

The process sucks, I don't find it enjoyable - beneficial, of course yes. But still Time must move forwards. I must do the same as time.

I savored it. Held on to as much as I could of living in the moment. And to be honest, it hurts more, when you hold on to something so tight although you know you must let it go eventually. So, to wrap it up, the past everything leading up to Mainstage was a process I didn't enjoy, meaning to say I loved everything about the Mainstage and getting ready for it and all, but the thought of holding on to it so tight to let it go, ripped right from you, sucks.

But that just means this process has been really, more beneficial.

When I savored it all, cherished all the moments, I did everything I know I could have done to make sure in the future I wouldn't reminisce in angst, but instead in being proud. And that makes all the difference.

Mainstage was pretty sick, if you missed out, sorry but we tore it a part the best we can. And it turned out great.

Thanks God for the last four years. Dream come true.

Go to...

Mainstage! My last Universal Rhythm Mainstage...It will be worth your money! Haha, you can go either on Thursday the 12th, Friday the 13th, or Valentine's day! I think we set that up real slick, cuz.

But no really, I'm going to miss it a lot after wards. I'm enjoying every moment of it, trying to savor and hold onto ever last single drip of time I can have of it!! No...I'm not that much of an emo burrito : P. It just really means a lot to me. I'm glad for having the blessing to be in company for four years, and now that it's going to be over, as well as senior year and all, I can say that I'm excited for the rest of my life.

I haven't blogged in a long time. I have a weekend now though! Sunday and on Monday we are off from school, and I'm most definitely going to enjoy my time off. I had a crazy week or so, and I have to admit a couple of things. School is extremely challenging, more so than I could ever think it could be. Dance is...well reread this blog from the top and you know. Work is on hold for a bit, called for some time off, but as soon as Mainstage is over I'll be back on that grind. Family is strong, and...I'm still single but that's no big thing ; ).

I got accepted into UC Riverside! I'm really proud of myself for it. I still haven't received word from CAL or UCD, and I'm hoping for the best with those two. If I had ever been more anxiously hopeful waiting on something for school, it'd be with this whole pre-college experience. I'm just really hoping and praying for the best, I put my best foot forward and I hope they take it all and me into consideration with acceptance.

I'm missing my last Winter HC. I didn't want to go, took the night off. I think I'll probably go to the next dance, and IMHO the yearbook dance is actually really an as good or even better time than a HC, sometimes. Last Winter HC was an HC I'd like to end my high school years with, and I'm going to leave it at that.

Hmm...I feeeeel like I'm missing something to say. When I remember I'll hit you back up, Blogspot, but I'm at a blank....wait...

Oh yeah! Talent show, I didn't audition. I really wanted to, just for laughs and kicks, but there's a chance in it for me still for Senior Talent Show. I have to take as much of these opportunities as I can before it slips away...

Class of 2009, I'm feeling it.

Okay now I'm blank again, : ) I'll hit you back up.

If you want to see dreams come true, Please go to Mainstage!