Oh know... no
I do not come unscathed
For every smile there seems an equatable frown
Surely, perhaps in line with the Law of Large Numbers
With I the exception, but I am assured for good reason
Say this is sufficient, I know the Scream and of Gachet
And I, indeed, also of the Agony and the Chaplet
With thanks I enjoy and endure as says Goethe
And my smiles are far from fake
January 31, 2014
January 27, 2014
Trust
Oh to be doubted
When I have been as thorough as I possibly could
By Method of Exhaustion, yes, I did
And now the world goes on, it does, to some end
I do not know
But I have been told over and over
What happens, He allows for good
Despite apparent sadness...
And for His Glory
So I do my best to follow what I can ascertain
And of what I cannot
Trust in Him
When I have been as thorough as I possibly could
By Method of Exhaustion, yes, I did
And now the world goes on, it does, to some end
I do not know
But I have been told over and over
What happens, He allows for good
Despite apparent sadness...
And for His Glory
So I do my best to follow what I can ascertain
And of what I cannot
Trust in Him
January 26, 2014
A Proposal
"And now, Mary, I've a home to offer you, and a heart as true as ever man to love you and cherish you; we shall never be rich folk, I dare say; but if a loving heart and a strong right arm can shield you from sorrow, or from want, mine shall do it. I cannot speak as I would like; my love won't let itself be put in words. But oh I darling, say you'll believe me, and that you'll be mine."
- Jem, Mary Barton, Chapter XI
January 24, 2014
My Tinnitus
So in addition to my horrendous hearing, I also have intermittent tinnitus. My first tinnitus episode happened in middle school, so I've been living with it for close to 10 years now. I've got to say, I'm pretty happy that at least I only have it intermittently... for now at least. When it gets terribly loud, I do get sad ... but I always look forward to the next time it relieves.
And when it does... I spend that time listening to as much beautiful music as I can:
Kina Grannis
Gabrielle Aplin
Andie (iwantaltidude on Youtube)
Shannon Saunders
Young the Giant
Lucy Rose
Frank Ocean
Adele
Sam Smith
Dry the River
Oh Land
Marina and the Diamonds
Eliza Doolittle
Ariana Grande
Justin Timberlake
Hayley Williams
Sister Crayon
Florence and the Machine
Bastille
...
And when it does... I spend that time listening to as much beautiful music as I can:
Kina Grannis
Gabrielle Aplin
Andie (iwantaltidude on Youtube)
Shannon Saunders
Young the Giant
Lucy Rose
Frank Ocean
Adele
Sam Smith
Dry the River
Oh Land
Marina and the Diamonds
Eliza Doolittle
Ariana Grande
Justin Timberlake
Hayley Williams
Sister Crayon
Florence and the Machine
Bastille
...
January 21, 2014
My Prayer Before Studying
Lord, please help me to learn all that I need to learn so that one day I can use what I learned to help others. St. Thomas Aquinas, please pray for me. St. Albert Magnus, please pray for me.
January 18, 2014
A Proper New Year Blog
It's been some time since I've updated my blog!
Save the poem I wrote, here's to a new and better 2014!
Started my second quarter at uni about two weeks ago, and I'm already knee-deep in assignments... I even had my first midterm last Friday (2 weeks in, and already a midterm)! I upped my unit load from 12 units to 17 units this quarter, so I'm extremely full-time, and the pace is unbelievable, but the challenge is so satisfying. Every time I study, afterwards, I feel a gradual decrease in the weight on my shoulders and it feels amazing.
One of the best things about being in the upper divs is that I love everything I'm studying, and time flows by fast. Sure, I need to get over a little activation energy to really get in the study mode, but when I'm there, I'd rather not do anything else.
An interesting challenge also came about recently. I've been having some trouble with my right eye vision as of late, and I've been at the doctor's often for it. It's been recovering nicely, but doc says I may have sustained some vision loss... as gloomy as it sounds I'm just happy it can still see, and, that, as I said, the recovery is going well. Prayers for my vision would be much appreciated.
Unexpected surprises seem to be the motif for the first couple of weeks of 2014. While I'd rather not have to deal with some of them, each surprise little by little prompts me to not stay complacent, and helps me to remember and renew the commitment I made to stay faithful and trusting in whatever God has in store for me.
January 4, 2014
Perhaps
Perhaps soon, soon and soon no less
when the bergamot aroma rises into my nose
I'll look back and think, yes, I was patient and blessed
when the rhythmic tone of your laugh enters my ears
I'll look back and think, yes, I kept myself best
when the white pearls shimmer in the florescent light
I'll look back and think, yes, the hard wait was meant
and when our hug warms my heart
there will be no question left unanswered
Perhaps soon, perhaps soon
when the bergamot aroma rises into my nose
I'll look back and think, yes, I was patient and blessed
when the rhythmic tone of your laugh enters my ears
I'll look back and think, yes, I kept myself best
when the white pearls shimmer in the florescent light
I'll look back and think, yes, the hard wait was meant
and when our hug warms my heart
there will be no question left unanswered
Perhaps soon, perhaps soon
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