It's 4:29 in the morning and I can't go to sleep! lol I guess my body's tired of sleeping, the past two nights I've been getting 11+ hours of sleep a night. But I didn't expect to stay up this late... I'll set the scene for you all, I'm writing this blog in the dark.
So while I was trying to go to sleep I was thinking. And I realized something about me.
I really like this one girl. So I guess I have a summer crush lol. The reality of me actually having a relationship with her is literally very small, but still...
Her smile is enough to make me incredibly happy. Her voice is enough to make me want to listen forever. Her texts and tweets are the most important thing I wait for. Her attitude energizes me. Her love for life calms me. And really...
All I want to do is be with her. All I want to do is be around her. All I want to do is know what she's doing. All I want to do is be someone her life. All I want to do is be the one in her life. All I want to do is know the struggles she's going through. All I want to do is know her past and be in her present and future. All I want to do is hold her hand. All I want to do is hug her. All I want to do is make myself better so that I can be what she wants. All I want to do is call her and text her back. All I want to do is spend my entire days with her. All I want to do is eat with her. All I want to do is buy her clothes (the ones she likes of course). All I want to do is be alone with her. All I want to do is take walks with her. All I want to do is tell her all my fears, because if the thought of her takes them away, I wonder what being with her can do. All I want to do is pray with her. All I want to do is lay with her. All I want to do is listen to her heartbeat. All I want to do is sleep on her stomach. All I want to do is have her head resting in the nook between my neck and shoulder. All I want to do is be where she is. All I want to do is be someone she knows inside and out. All I want to do is know her inside and out. All I want to do is be with her and her family during holidays. All I want to do is take long drives with her, alternating driving, along beaches and other beautiful landscapes. All I want to do is not sound crazy if she ever saw this, lol. All I want to do is to tell her how crazy I am about her, without her thinking I'm actually crazy, or psycho, or sick. All I want her to do is let me have a chance with her...
Ahhhh... feels good to say that. Okay goodnight! :)
May 26, 2011
May 17, 2011
The Love We Should Have For Each Other
I don't want to write this to hurt feelings, but, in any case, my goal is to tell you how I think we should care for each other, how to grasp a bit of compassion for one another.
For the most part, we've been trapped to believe that we're the most important things on earth - me included. And sometimes, we even do things that we may think are selfless, but in reality we only do to make ourselves feel better.
I get it, we all want to be happy, but at the expense at diminishing other people's happiness? I don't understand how that can be fruitful in any sense. And, I want to be clear about this, although there are some philosophical beliefs that differ each one of us (and by all means, we should stand by our beliefs), there is still, regardless of our differences, a uniting truth that gives us reason to consider and have compassion for each others situations independent of our own struggles - we are all subject to the human experience.
It is really hard to look past ourselves, I can't lie. And the worst part is, trying to do so when everyone else just doesn't care to try.
For the record, there is a theoretically right and wrong way to everything, but because we are human - what's more important is that we focus on being ideally compassionate -not perfect. And also, for the record, compassion is the ability by effort to be able to feel other people's struggles and consider them as your own and to consider their previous, prior, and in the future actions in light of their situations, independent of your own actual problems.
Sometimes, being a good friend requires you to be firm and harsh while helping them find the best way for them to solve their problems. But, all the time it's necessary to do so with a voice that shows how much you love them. And sometimes they won't understand you at that moment, but if you really took the effort to be compassionate, someday they will.
And if you're somebody that's really trying hard to be there for people, I respect you so much. How you're so selfless, understanding, and gentle, but still unwavering in your beliefs.
I think St. Thomas Aquinas said it the best: "Love is the effective willing of the good of the other".
Sincerely,
Aaron
Sincerely,
Aaron
For the most part, we've been trapped to believe that we're the most important things on earth - me included. And sometimes, we even do things that we may think are selfless, but in reality we only do to make ourselves feel better.
I get it, we all want to be happy, but at the expense at diminishing other people's happiness? I don't understand how that can be fruitful in any sense. And, I want to be clear about this, although there are some philosophical beliefs that differ each one of us (and by all means, we should stand by our beliefs), there is still, regardless of our differences, a uniting truth that gives us reason to consider and have compassion for each others situations independent of our own struggles - we are all subject to the human experience.
It is really hard to look past ourselves, I can't lie. And the worst part is, trying to do so when everyone else just doesn't care to try.
For the record, there is a theoretically right and wrong way to everything, but because we are human - what's more important is that we focus on being ideally compassionate -not perfect. And also, for the record, compassion is the ability by effort to be able to feel other people's struggles and consider them as your own and to consider their previous, prior, and in the future actions in light of their situations, independent of your own actual problems.
Sometimes, being a good friend requires you to be firm and harsh while helping them find the best way for them to solve their problems. But, all the time it's necessary to do so with a voice that shows how much you love them. And sometimes they won't understand you at that moment, but if you really took the effort to be compassionate, someday they will.
And if you're somebody that's really trying hard to be there for people, I respect you so much. How you're so selfless, understanding, and gentle, but still unwavering in your beliefs.
I think St. Thomas Aquinas said it the best: "Love is the effective willing of the good of the other".
Sincerely,
Aaron
Sincerely,
Aaron
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