You.

Song: "Ordinary Love" by MYMP
Mood: Okay :)

Hi.

There is probably only one thing that can occupy my mind and completely distract me from everything else that I am doing at the moment. That is thinking about you. This is a blog to you.

I don't know when exactly I'll finally be able to talk with you. I guess there must be some odd reason why I can't have you in my life right now. It's like, I wish you were though because the other things and people in my life aren't too interesting. I think you would be the most interesting person I'd ever meet and talk with. I don't get why I get tired of other people, things, but I never get tired thinking about you. You are pretty special, you know that? I bet you don't, at least not right now.

I don't know what's happening in your life right now. I hope that everything is okay. I bet you're probably stressing about your future as much as I am - or maybe not. Maybe you're already set for your future - you probably know where you want to go and what you want to be when you grow older. I wish I could say the same.

I hope stress doesn't get the best of you. It is for me. I think I'm doing too much honestly. But you, I think you probably strive under that pressure. Haha, or I think you probably don't even have that pressure because you're not a procrastinator at all. You probably are so organized and you probably don't waste time like I do.

You're also probably not very slow, unlike me. I've noticed that about myself, I tend to be very slow when I learn new things and it takes me a while to become not so bad. You probably get things done right the first time.

You also probably have a lot of guys crushing on you. I know that's a fact. There's probably some other dude right now feeling for you as bad as I am, probably even worse than I am. Poor guy. You probably like him right now too. I wonder if you have a boyfriend right now. It's okay if you do. Just don't hurt the poor guys heart too bad. Help him to grow, impact his life so that he can find his true love. I'm sure that your an amazing girlfriend and person to be with. Just make sure you know that he's not the only guy out there, and there probably is somebody better... (Ahem)

I wonder if you're afraid to take chances, because I'm not. I also have no shame, I wonder if you're ready for that when you meet me. I hope you're okay with it, I mean I am a little different from most guys. I'm not trying to toot my horn or anything, but I'm that "nice guy" everyone talks about. I'm pretty happy of it too. But don't worry, just because some people don't think I can protect you because I seem too nice...Let me tell you, I promise you when you and I are together I won't let anything or anyone hurt you.

And I know you'll be okay. You might or might not be going through some problems, but if you are, I'm sure you'll be okay. Just cause I'm not with you right now, that just means Jesus is there protecting you and loving you and watching over you right now. Trust me, I know, I ask Him every night to. And I'm pretty confident with that.

A Powerful Song

Song: "Far Away" by Lecrae
Mood: Thankful

Last Tuesday I was blessed to have been at CRC at the right time and the right place. The Christian Campus Ministries were hosting a concert as a benefit and fundraiser for I believe those who were in need for this coming Thanksgiving, and to spread the Good News. I thought it was a great event! On-lookers were passing by, a few looked disgruntled from all praising, but I was completely captivated!

I was greatly inspired and on Fire from those who were hosting the event...people who were close to my age with the CONVICTION that Christ is Lord! They were not afraid to let the world know who they were representing... THIS is what the world NEEDS, more people with the conviction to share the Gospel and Good News of Christ in the secular world... everyone in the world needs to know that Jesus loves them... so much. I pray and hope that one day I may be able to be like those people, on fire with such extreme conviction! It was so powerful to me.. Glory to God!

While I was listening to the concert... I was captivated by this beautiful and powerful song I'd like to share. It's called "Far Away" byLecrae. I never really appreciated the power of Christian Rap/Poetry like this before... As a song it had a great chorus sample, nice beat, and great lyricism... As a testimony to the love of God, it was soul-captivating and powerful so much so that I, honestly, felt every. single. word. of it. I really want to know more Christian Rap/Poetry...if any of you know of any please share it with me... I yearn for more! Here it is for you who would like to listen and be captivated by our Loving God.



Simply great, because it glorifies the greatness and compassion of God.

I'm renewed by this, solaced by the fact that my own struggles are only manifestations of God's great love for me. Glory to God.

God bless you all as you all carry your own crosses.
-Aaron

God is purifying me.

Song: "Fragile Heart" - Cassie (demo)
Mood: Struggling

Have you ever felt like God was testing your faith in Him and His Will for you? Right now I do. And honestly it's extremely hard for me ... it's like all I want to do is fall back on my worries and fears and human reactions up to the point of me wanting to completely quit!

It tough, but I must learn to accept this blessing in disguise. I know that God loves me, and only wants the best for me - and if He brought me to it, I just need to have faith and believe He'll get me through it!

I'm sure God doesn't give us anything we can't handle. When we are at those times we feel like things aren't going our way, I think it's God's way of wanting to purify us and make us better. It's as if He's turning on the heat in our lives to change us, He must want us to change and have more faith in Him and trust Him more!

I know whatever happens to me was willed by Him because He loves me.

God bless you as you all carry your own crosses.

-Aaron

A better person.

Mood: Reflective
Song: "War Of My Life" by John Mayer

For the most part, there's always somewhat of an internal conflict in me. As I'm living, I'm consistently bombarded with decisions to choose from - all essentially asking me this:

"Do this and become a better person, OR do this and be an unchanged/worse person".

I want to always be in a state of mind and heart that keeps me focused to always wanting to be a better person.

I think I've found a way to do so, but I need the help of Jesus.

-Aaron

So much craziness

Hey all :)

Song: "Please Don't Go" - Mike Posner
Mood: Refreshed

SO. It's been too long of a hiatus; and I've been overly too busy. Just a quick recap - full time school (organic chemistry, botany, psychology), no job, St. Maria Goretti Youth and Young Adult leader, aspiring scientist, coffee-lover, and just tryingtokeepittogether!

This past week has been scholastically insane. I had a chemistry exam, a botany quiz, and next week I have my third Botany exam. I really wish I did better this semester; I really liked my class although their so different in approach: Botany and Psychology are taught so vast and broad in their spectrum, and Organic Chemistry is not technically as broad, but so deep (all of course, relative to what I'm used to).

I still really love Cassie Ventura. www.cassieboards.com and www.cassieverse.org on my daily rounds, in addition to FB, twitter, and Words with Friends!

I really want to dance. I had the strongest urge to go out dancing last night! I just wanted to dance it all out and relax - I don't dance much anymore. I've been getting fat. Once I'm done with school for this semester I'm looking forward to an evening with dancing. Dancers... you feel me?

Tomorrow I'll be heading to Reno the whole day for a Marian Conference. It seems like just what I needed. http://www.adoregod.org/2010-conference-flyer/ Thank you Lord.

Shout out to one of my best friends, Ryan McKee. He just dropped out a dope Mutual Complex (You all remember right?) shirt... It's nice to know he's still putting in work with our old crew. We might come back one day you know. lol. MINH, he's getting you your official black crew neck too - only five of those came out and I'm rocking mine. If you all like the shirt and want one, just hit me up - they are really dope :)

Today I've got a study group for Botany I have to go to... the rest of the day will be devoted to studying. Unfortunately, our Worship Night with St. Maria Goretti Youth And Young Adult group was canceled today, but we shall have one next week instead - looking forward to it. :).

Quote of the day:
"A mathematician is a device for turning coffee into theorems" - Dr. Paul Erdos

God bless as you carry your own crosses.

-Aaron

Work

So it's about Midnight and the beginning of a new day; yesterday ended with me being at work.

I work part time at McDonald's and I've been there for about almost two years... With saying that two things come to mind: 1) Whoa two years fly by fast and 2) Wow, am I really still here?

lol. Don't get me wrong. I love that I even have a job - it's hard times these days and any money is better than no money, especially when you need the money. (Biggest cash consumer? Gas, then food). So before I rant, because I feel like it, keep in mind that in the end I am thankful that I'm employed...

Now, moving on ...... uggggh!! *sigh*
I think there comes a point when you've been working at an establishment so long (with one exception...I'll talk about this later) that you realize how much you want to change it up and move on to another (hopefully better) job. And I can't lie, I'm getting to the point where I'm tired of working at McD's doing the same thing over and over - it's the kind of repetitiveness that I don't enjoy.

But, with respect, I have learned a lot of things working at this job of mine that will definitely help me in my job search for the future; for the sake keeping this blog short (relatively to my usual blogs..lol) I'll only share two things I learned the hard way - and I hope you can take them into consideration as well:

1.) Meet your boss/store manager before you apply - see if he or she is or isn't someone you can enjoy working with.

2.) Don't settle for anything less / Don't settle for pay that doesn't match the load of work. I can honestly say that there are more than a handful of other jobs which pay minimum wage that I would rather work at knowing how hard I work at my job (for the record - fast food isn't as easy as you think it is...and if you think it's easy than you're, in my opinion, dope).

Of course...there are more things I can try to convey, but I think these two criteria are overlooked by young job-seekers today... but really when it comes down to it - it's your choice and, given your own circumstance, you make the decision for yourself and if you don't think my two suggestions are worth taking into consideration, or if you think you don't need to consider them.... if when your working you realize how I tried to help, then all I can say is I tried to warn you. ;)

But definitely, I love my coworkers. They are all about my age group and older, and they really make the job a good time for me. ANY JOB is a PLUS when your coworkers are DOPE and there's no work drama (yeah, work drama actually exists. -___- . I know, right!)


I eluded to this earlier in the blog, but I mentioned there is one exception to working at your job for a really long time. Call me naive, but I firmly believe that I would never rant about a job if it's my DREAM JOB. :)

It's still in the works for me right now, and I'm still thinking about what I really want to be for sure, but if I had to share what I believe my dream job is.... I believe it is as a Lead Biochemical Researcher of my own Laboratory. (That means my own lab coat with my name one it... Love it!).

I don't think I can ever be tired of working in the lab. Even in school when the class has a lab component - time flies for me when I'm just doing Lab. I can be in the lab for hours and enjoy! Yup!...

In retrospect, I realize that my dream job is one where I would like to use my brain, and not my hands to make a living. At McDonald's I'm working with my hands and not so much my brain... But as a researcher I'm working more with my brains and my hands not so much. One day, one day...


Oh yeah, and to set the record straight - Money isn't my calling in life. I have come to understand that for me, yes I would like to live having a little extra from my career and especially more than enough for raising a family, but I don't need to be a multi-millionaire to be happy. I really don't think money will satisfy me. I only hope that from my career as a researcher I can make a difference in this world - cliche as that sounds - I sincerely really hope that one day I can make a positive difference.

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But until then, I guess I'm stuck flipping burgers for now... Uggggh. lol Maybe I'll find a new job..Hmm ;)

Goodnight and God Bless.

Back from haitus / Congrats Graduating C/O 2010

It's been a while since I've blogged! But I feel the need to really start this blog site back up, because I've been having really overflowing thoughts recently and I think blogging about them can help me sort through them out. So, Hi again :)

Okay... I think a reintroduction is in order. Hi, My name is Aaron, I'm 18 turning 19 soon, I attend community colleges of the Los Rios district, I work part time at McDonald's, I'm a youth leader of the St. Maria Goretti Catholic Church, and I love pandas. But if you already knew that, a little more... I'm a biochemistry major with the aspiration to one day become a lead researcher of a laboratory. I want to, with God's will, make a positive difference in this world. And I've most recently have developed this hunger to know more about my theological and personal beliefs... And I've developed a small knack for reading too (which is a big change since last blog lol).

So more blogging from now on. Yup.

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Congrats to the Graduating C/O 2010! Today I attended the Sheldon Graduation ceremony at Arco Arena... I want to give a special congrats to one of my best friends Brittany Welence, and a very good friend of mine Elaine Maher. It was especially nice to see them walk across that stage...

All throughout the ceremony, I was happy for the graduating class; I was also praying for them. It was nice to be surrounded in the audience by the families of the graduates, and it was really touching to me - I saw mothers and fathers cry, siblings and cousins cheer, and grandparents smile proud smiles. I could tell that the families loved their graduating children so much... That their accomplishments made them feel so alive. In truth, I was also rejuvenated by the fact of their accomplishment (graduating) in my hopes to follow my own dreams and to continue to try to make my family and friends proud of me. That was the most powerful part of watching the graduation for me - realizing, once again, that my actions effect more than just me, but my family, my friends, and my community...

With that in mind, as I sat watching the ceremony I kept praying... praying that those walking the stage can continue to influence and succeed in their own endeavors... that in the midst of trials that they are kept in solace by the fact that they are extremely loved by their family and friends. I prayed that the Class of 2010 would continue, which each graduate, to make differences in this world despite the odds. The significance of this graduation was more than the end of high school, but the beginning of a life long endeavor with a diploma from high school signifying that "I did this, and with even more hard work I can continue to do great things".

After the ceremony ended, I rushed to take pictures of me with the future of the world that is the graduates of the C/O 2010. :)

I couldn't help but be reminded by the fact that it's been one whole year since my graduation. With each passing year, I only hope that my high school graduation wouldn't be in vain, that I would continue with each year to better myself with the same spirit I had going into my graduation "I did it".

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*On a side note, it feels good to blog again!