Blessings.

Thank God for all the blessings in life, especially the blessings in disguise.

I'm working hard, guys. I'm a little exhausted, but I'm doing my best. All I have to look forward to now is that night I get to put my head on my pillow and say "I did it".

"Life is a single skip for joy".

moments that count.

I had a very great past week. A lot of stuff happened. Some of it not so good, but some of it great and through it all another week ends. As a new week begins, begins a new week to try and learn from mistakes that I made last week, and to make new mistakes.

Firstly, if anybody noticed, I changed the blog layout! Haha, but it was mostly to symbolize the new term of school! My last term at Sheldon High, every day is a day closer to graduation. I'm excited for it, and I'm really anticipating it because I'd really like to graduate. This is not going to be the easiest term, mixed with my classes and saying "see you later" to the rest of the class of 2009, I'm going to need to really appreciate every moment I still have left of it.

With that being said, I passed all of my classes! : ) Definitely a relief and a satisfaction.

The last 10 minutes of the probably only Economics class I'll ever had, my teacher handed me and the rest of the class a blue little piece of paper, it was pretty small. She told us "I know you guys went through 9 weeks of GDP, Supply and Demand, and Taxes, but everything you only really need to know about Economics is on this little blue paper that I hope you guys can use in the future"...

It mainly said "For every action, you had an Opportunity Cost. Just make sure the price you paid is worth your action". I really thought about it, and realized..."Truth".

I can't belive I didn't talk about this last blog, but I have to bring this back up. Looking back at it, it was a defintely a moment to remember. Britt! If you are reading, thank you for letting me be your date to your Junior Prom : ). It was last saturday, and I had a lot of fun on the dance floor. I haven't dressed up in a full suit for a while, so it was good to dress up. I always imagined a job in the future where I had to dress up everyday, with a tie and all. Just seems so right to me. Someday...

Hands down, the best part of my week was during the reverse minimum day. I was thankfully invited to a beautiful morning picnic with three dope people: Desiree, Cindy, and Alex (who I just met). We took advantage of the fact school started so late, and in addition to just kicking it and relaxing and taking pictures : ) , we experienced the beauty of morn. Thanks you guys, if you're reading. Best Morning. Ever.

To follow up with that, Happy 17th Birthday Desiree! : ) Hope you had fun snowboarding, and that you had a great birthday, and that you have many more Happy Birthdays to come !

I'm really digging Marie Digby right now. Her voice sounds so pure, so soothing, so sincere. She's really also making me love the piano. Very talented, random but just wanted to mention my ears, well...ear, is enjoying her gift from God.

I haven't been dancing much lately. I just haven't had a lot of time to dance. Universal Rhythm is putting in work on their Student Showcase, Florin and Elk Grove is having their Mainstage this week, and I'm no where near any of the events for high school dance. Just been putting a lot of work into studying for the classes I'm in. I love to dance, but reality slapped me back into place this week. There's more important things, and I definitely did what I needed to when it meant most.

I heard this quote this past week too...
"Sometimes you can't want what you want, you got to want what you need".
*I did so ; )

And to add to that!....

I've been holding on to two fortune cookies in my wallet. They say:
"Killing time murders opportunities"
"Keep up the good work. You will soon be rewarded"...
Whoa right?...Fortune cookies....

Today I also went to my cousins house. They are total Twilight fans, and already have the DVD. I ended up watching it, and after watching it I understand why girls love Edward Cullins so much...

...Maybe it's because he totally ditched Bella when she first met him. Straight up son! Left her for one full week in the dust. That got Bella hella feeling for him. Moral?: Girls like guys who ignore them.

...Maybe it's because, after he started finally talking to her, he made sure he made her know that he wanted her! The guy pretty much stalked her, heard all the thoughts of fools tryna hit on her, and made sure those guys thought twice before stepping up to her. Moral?: Girls like guys who made sure no one would hurt his girl.

...Maybe it's because, he knows how to drive his car cool. He did like a 180 degree turn in it, it did look cool and you know, girls love guys that can do car tricks. Moral?: Girls like guys who can drive, and drive well.

And after really thinking about those listed "Maybe it's becauses" and more, I finally realiezd why girls like Edward Cullins so much...

The real reason why is because...
It's cause he's a Vampire, and Vampires are hot to girls.

Moral?: It's either I turn into a Vampire, or have bad luck with girls for forever (No pun intended) ; )

Overall, these are some moments that counted in my week. I'm looking forward to what happens next, but I'll keep you'll updated.

P.S: Sorry to those that hate to read. In your face = P

If I had my way..I

So, this blog is on a downer-note. Just to warn you in advance.

Sometimes, like now, I wish I had what I wanted. That's pretty lazy of me, I know, to just wish it all come true, not putting in work to get what I want. But, with that aside (the means of getting what I want) I just long for it all if everything was my way. Yeah, I'm just the most selfish guy aren't I? Haha.

I figured out where it's rooted. It's not really from jealousy, so I'm happy about that. It's more coming from the old adage that "we get what we deserve". That's my human insight, at least. But life has shown and taught me to modify the verse, b/c I've pretty much also accepted that "we get what we deserve, and we get what we don't deserve too".

"So close, but yet so far..."

Felt like that sometimes? I feeeeel you.

Wack though, what's up with all this useless writing right? I dunno. I'll get mines, and what's meant to be. But still...if I had my way.

I think Taeko would be a cool chick to be around *random.

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Back to the books.

sleeep

I miss sleep. Sleep is sooooo goood. I love when I sleep. I really miss my sleep...

My bed is so soft, and my pillows are awesome. I love it when I'm just lying in bed, and then I fall asleep.

But the worst feeling is when I'm lying in bed, but I don't sleep. And have to do homework or something but not sleep. I wish I was sleeping right now. Lying in bed is a tease for me.

I used to think just lying in bed is like resting per say, because you're not moving any body, kind of like an electric vehicle that goes downhill and restores energy while it's moving, where the car is not turned off but is still recharging. Kind of like me, or so well I thought, when I would just lie there, but it's not true.

I just lie there hoping to sleep, but the more I lie the more sleep I don't get.

I love sleep.

Away for a day.

I had the very best Saturday. Away from all anxieties, stress, and what not. I held off on a lot of things, but it was worth a day off. I definitely needed a time to breathe, it got me bad - last week. Whew so much to do, but let me give you a peak at the beauty I saw recently.
I went on a retreat Saturday, it was planned by the Diocese of Sacramento. It took place on top of a hill in Auburn. The weather was perfect, sunny with a breeze. It was very peaceful and silent. I'm a sucker for silence. I think there such a thing as too much noise, especially for me, constantly listening to music and lectures and whatever else, so I value my alone silent time. Thanks God, most definitely what I needed, You.

Before time takes its course

I'll take a picture. Just a reminder. Postmark this.

Hi. I'm young, clever, slick, intelligent. More than what meets your pupils, son. Hahaha.

No artificial in me. Pure organic. Sincerely yours.

I'm not what I'm not. I am who I am.

Currently 17 years old. I have my driver's license and a part time job. I'm the leader of my youth group, in two dance company's, and my school's academy. A faithful son, dedicated student, carefree dancer, hardworking worker, loving brother, trustworthy friend, and a child of God.

I keep a schedule right now. I can't remember everything. I'm a nice guy.

I like to treat others the way I want to be treated. I'm not afraid to fall. I challenge myself constantly, and I encourage myself.

Cassie, if your reading, I'm all yours still < 3

And to everyone else, just think of this blog this way. As far as I'm concerned, I'll never get this moment back. So I'm taking it, and owning it. I have my name written all over it, and I wont' forget it either. I suggest all you all do the same.

Unexpected.

Have you ever woken up one day (well we wake up every day), and said to yourself "I'm gonna do this, and this, and this, and that, then that, and then I'm done for the day".

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Then you lived your day, and then went to sleep that same day and said to yourself on your pillow before you dead out, "Wow, I never expected that to happen today. Thank you God"

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You don't plan your days. God does. Your on His time, homie. Not yours. Thank God for all His blessings in life - especially the blessings in disguise.

My day was definitely filled with blessings, and I'm thankful. I went to Church for a long time today. We had our first St. Maria Goretti Youth Group Meeting. And I had a really grown a great connection with two new people in my life who are really a blessing. Their names are Mary and Carmelyn. Thank you guys, means a lot to have shared life with the both of you : )

Today just reminded me that you can't close your heart to the blessings of the Lord. I'm pretty much renewed. And, the week just began : )