If I had my way..I

So, this blog is on a downer-note. Just to warn you in advance.

Sometimes, like now, I wish I had what I wanted. That's pretty lazy of me, I know, to just wish it all come true, not putting in work to get what I want. But, with that aside (the means of getting what I want) I just long for it all if everything was my way. Yeah, I'm just the most selfish guy aren't I? Haha.

I figured out where it's rooted. It's not really from jealousy, so I'm happy about that. It's more coming from the old adage that "we get what we deserve". That's my human insight, at least. But life has shown and taught me to modify the verse, b/c I've pretty much also accepted that "we get what we deserve, and we get what we don't deserve too".

"So close, but yet so far..."

Felt like that sometimes? I feeeeel you.

Wack though, what's up with all this useless writing right? I dunno. I'll get mines, and what's meant to be. But still...if I had my way.

I think Taeko would be a cool chick to be around *random.

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