I'll Blog Myself To Sleep

It's 4:29 in the morning and I can't go to sleep! lol I guess my body's tired of sleeping, the past two nights I've been getting 11+ hours of sleep a night. But I didn't expect to stay up this late... I'll set the scene for you all, I'm writing this blog in the dark.

So while I was trying to go to sleep I was thinking. And I realized something about me.

I really like this one girl. So I guess I have a summer crush lol. The reality of me actually having a relationship with her is literally very small, but still...

Her smile is enough to make me incredibly happy. Her voice is enough to make me want to listen forever. Her texts and tweets are the most important thing I wait for. Her attitude energizes me. Her love for life calms me. And really...

All I want to do is be with her. All I want to do is be around her. All I want to do is know what she's doing. All I want to do is be someone her life. All I want to do is be the one in her life. All I want to do is know the struggles she's going through. All I want to do is know her past and be in her present and future. All I want to do is hold her hand. All I want to do is hug her. All I want to do is make myself better so that I can be what she wants. All I want to do is call her and text her back. All I want to do is spend my entire days with her. All I want to do is eat with her. All I want to do is buy her clothes (the ones she likes of course). All I want to do is be alone with her. All I want to do is take walks with her. All I want to do is tell her all my fears, because if the thought of her takes them away, I wonder what being with her can do. All I want to do is pray with her. All I want to do is lay with her. All I want to do is listen to her heartbeat. All I want to do is sleep on her stomach. All I want to do is have her head resting in the nook between my neck and shoulder. All I want to do is be where she is. All I want to do is be someone she knows inside and out. All I want to do is know her inside and out. All I want to do is be with her and her family during holidays. All I want to do is take long drives with her, alternating driving, along beaches and other beautiful landscapes. All I want to do is not sound crazy if she ever saw this, lol. All I want to do is to tell her how crazy I am about her, without her thinking I'm actually crazy, or psycho, or sick. All I want her to do is let me have a chance with her...

Ahhhh... feels good to say that. Okay goodnight! :)