There are moments when I wish I could be someone else, take someone else's problems, and not be me. Simply to be someone else. I have these wandering ideas that, if I were someone else, I'd be able to be closer to this other person, or I'd be able to accomplish so much more, and, best of all, I wouldn't have to deal with the problem I have to deal with.
It's a one-sided, naive attempt to dissociate myself with myself; how could I really think another person's problems would be easier than mine, given their own specialized situations and circumstances? But then again, the pain the self is conflicted with causes the self to weakly wonder.
Dissociating thoughts are caused by embarrassment, of course. The self becomes embarrassed of the past mistakes, the present problems, and the future struggles. It's the polar opposite of the cure to the problem of the wanderlust-self, embracement.
Once the self embraces the past mistakes, the present problems, and the future struggles, then there is no more dissociation. Spurred by the belief that the self experiences itself, and all that it has been confronted with, for good reason, the self will proceed by good reason and wonder no more.
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