Everything Matters

When it comes to matters of the heart, everything matters. Every done and undone action, every said and unsaid word, every memory, every small minute of time spent and not spent - everything. Every pain, every struggle, every tear, every frown, every hurt, every failure - everything. Every smile, every laugh, every tear, every touch, every hug, every accomplishment - everything. When it comes to matters of the heart, everything matters.

Faith

Everything happens for a reason. You hear it everyday, but do you believe it? For me, everything I've been through the past couple of years has led me to say that, yes, it must be so, it must be true.

I wonder sometimes what makes people work, because some people really do work. I'm sure a lot of things come into play, like a goal and dream to look forward to and work towards, support of the family and friends...etc.

But how can some people take risks so surely? With conviction? I don't think people do so illogically, but no matter what, there is always a sense of uncertainty. They must have faith; this is undeniable.

Then how can someone have faith? A lot of things come into play, but one thing is for sure about faith; a person has faith because he or she had an experience before that made them realize that everything will be okay and feels right; let's call this experience "happiness".

Happiness, in this case, is an event someone experiences that makes them feel like this is what I was meant to do, this is what I'm meant to feel. For some people, happiness could be playing music, or acting, or playing basketball, or doing math problems, or hiking, or helping people, or this is the person that makes me feel like I'm alive, this is the person I'd die for.

Without experiencing happiness, a person cannot have faith, without faith, a person cannot proceed in any risk. And without risk, there isn't change... And without change, there isn't growth, and without growth... a person really isn't living.

Then the fundamental question is: what makes you happy? Well, ironically, that's one of the only risks worth pursing wherein there is no uncertainty. Everyone is meant to have a "happiness experience". And when you've experienced happiness, then you'll have faith, and then you'll take risks...

I've found my happiness.

PS: If you think that not all people experience a happiness experience, then well, that is nonsense. Why? Because logic says so. You have your talents, you have your uniqueness. Use them. What if you don't use them? Well, then you don't have faith or reason. And I'll sum up 3000 years of philosophy for you - you must at least use your ability to reason logically, it is, essentially, the crux and namesake of our humanity, and if you don't want to use it, well... let's just say you were a smarter person as a baby, because even babies understand conceptually the laws of physics between birth and 2 years old.

PSS: There really isn't anyone who does not think; in fact, people who say they don 't think, just think wrong.

"Saying Bye to a Stranger"

All I know left is
The direction she went in
That's it, That way
But, away

-Aaron Simmons

oh hey, this blog works!

Hi all!

So, I literally made an entirely new blog because I thought this blog was deleted! So to not break continuity, check www.auhaaron.blogspot.com

I won 't delete that last one, but I'll continue to this original one. :) This was a pleasant surprise, indeed.

The past week has been very interesting. I was in a hit-and-run accident last friday, and I have to admit when it happened I was really shook up. Me and my sister were in it, and we're okay, thankfully it wasn't anything extremely serious. But it was definitely an eye-opener in many ways. for me. It seems like everyday that goes by I reflect about it, I realize yet another great lesson learned about it, especially when others give their input about it, too.

But essentially,... God is so good. He really was watching out and protecting us. I'm so thankful. It really reminded me how I really need to live moment-to-moment more, and how I can only do my best, and everything else is out of my control.

Yours,

Aaron

I'll Blog Myself To Sleep

It's 4:29 in the morning and I can't go to sleep! lol I guess my body's tired of sleeping, the past two nights I've been getting 11+ hours of sleep a night. But I didn't expect to stay up this late... I'll set the scene for you all, I'm writing this blog in the dark.

So while I was trying to go to sleep I was thinking. And I realized something about me.

I really like this one girl. So I guess I have a summer crush lol. The reality of me actually having a relationship with her is literally very small, but still...

Her smile is enough to make me incredibly happy. Her voice is enough to make me want to listen forever. Her texts and tweets are the most important thing I wait for. Her attitude energizes me. Her love for life calms me. And really...

All I want to do is be with her. All I want to do is be around her. All I want to do is know what she's doing. All I want to do is be someone her life. All I want to do is be the one in her life. All I want to do is know the struggles she's going through. All I want to do is know her past and be in her present and future. All I want to do is hold her hand. All I want to do is hug her. All I want to do is make myself better so that I can be what she wants. All I want to do is call her and text her back. All I want to do is spend my entire days with her. All I want to do is eat with her. All I want to do is buy her clothes (the ones she likes of course). All I want to do is be alone with her. All I want to do is take walks with her. All I want to do is tell her all my fears, because if the thought of her takes them away, I wonder what being with her can do. All I want to do is pray with her. All I want to do is lay with her. All I want to do is listen to her heartbeat. All I want to do is sleep on her stomach. All I want to do is have her head resting in the nook between my neck and shoulder. All I want to do is be where she is. All I want to do is be someone she knows inside and out. All I want to do is know her inside and out. All I want to do is be with her and her family during holidays. All I want to do is take long drives with her, alternating driving, along beaches and other beautiful landscapes. All I want to do is not sound crazy if she ever saw this, lol. All I want to do is to tell her how crazy I am about her, without her thinking I'm actually crazy, or psycho, or sick. All I want her to do is let me have a chance with her...

Ahhhh... feels good to say that. Okay goodnight! :)