Infinite Loops

Just came back from an amazing family vacation in Lake Tahoe. So thankful I got to cap the rest of my summer before uni there with them. Lake Tahoe is beautiful as always, and I loved spending time with all my cousins. Drinks, games, and food, lounging on the beach-shore... I can't thank my cousins and aunts and uncles, mom and dad, I can't thank them enough for everything they did to make the trip so dope. Will post pics as soon as those get uploaded.

Very blessed to have had our resort right on the shore... I woke up, walked 20 steps, and the lake was right there. Framed by the mountains, the lake is a beaut, and really got time to think. 

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I think this blog is long-over due for me, because I'm pretty much a self-certified expert at personal infinite loops (cue the TBBT clip with Sheldon Cooper and his infinite friend loop).  

I'm not hating against routines, especially good routines, and we all have them, but it takes a great deal of personal investment and humility to really take a step back and have a good look at the negative routines in your life.  And there are probably many good ways to deal with them, so I'll leave that to your discretion. 

But there comes a point, that lowly, rock-bottom moment, when you've dwelt in a negative routine for a long time that you begin to say to yourself "I'm done feeling/living/acting this way" and have say to yourself "I'm ready for a new chapter in my life, whatever that is" despite all the uncertainty, worry, and anxiety attempting to do so brings you. In a sense it's kind of like a balancing act where on one side is your negative routines and all that habit affords you, and on the other side the possibility of all the good the attempt to break those habits may bring you.

I usually don't brush over details, but I understand this very general call-to-action of an extremely personal moment in anyone's life doesn't do much to help anyone who is actually in the process of getting over a negative infinite loop as far as specifics go, but that's where it all starts fundamentally: it's worth it to repeat over and over again -- I'm ready for a new chapter in my life, whatever that is.  And I think a lot of people need that reminder, including me.