Oh well

I find myself wanting to write something, and I think I have thoughts that would be helpful.  But I can't write them. Something's stopping me, whether if its myself or my situation I haven't decided yet. It takes a lot of effort to write, you know. 

It's as if the part of me that naturally wants to help, there's not enough impetus to let it take over and do what it does. Maybe for once I'm suppressing it in hopes of that helpful nature of mine would stop helping others, in the hopes that it would help itself. Because I could use help too, ya know. 

Oh well, if the zeitgeist is "IDGAF" then, why not? Maybe some schadenfreude would be good for me, after all (two German words? Niiice).  Lol. ahhh I know, this is a bad way to be...

No worries. It's just a thought.