Fighting

I've been a little heavy on the drama in the previous blogs. I'll keep on running with it. 

I'm unhealthy. It's clearly obvious that I can't do too much physical activity. I can't run a mile right now. But even more, sometimes normal things are hard to do. Just waking up and making a day plan and carrying it through ... gets me tired (physically... mentally is another story). 

So I drink coffee. It helps. I know I shouldn't have to though.

But something that helps when I want to be a lazy fat man that gets me up is the thought: 

"Aaron, fight for your life". 

That helps a ton. Living is a fight. I need that realization right now. Lively things fight -- they move and cry and laugh. When babies are born? You hope they come out crying (right?)? 

I need that vitality. I need that cold water. Now more than ever.