Worth it? or Na.

That's the question I've been thinking a lot about these past days. It's all a gamble - a sequence of choices, trade-offs, and opportunity costs. I've been put through some interesting situations the past week. There are some things I wish I could have done better if I was put in the situation again, but Life says I can't redo moments in time. But one thing's for sure, it takes a lot out of me, and I've been exhausted.

It's tricky, though, you know the thought of investment into something that you're not quite sure about. So much to think about before you act.

Why is it that no one says "Feel before you act"? If you do what feels right, then that should be the best calling to answer. But it's a good thing we don't react to situations like that. Our heads were put above our hearts (and those two were put above our reproductive organs) for a reason.

But I have to be honest, when you let something pass by, it sucks watching it pass you by. Even though you know it's for the better that you let it pass by, you know in your heart that it could have been you taking that opportunity. You know in your heart that you're different from the others, that you're unique, that you can do it better, that you're what is needed, and that you fit the criteria perfectly, like it was meant to be.

I hope it's worth it, but let me tell you, I feel it. I wonder if you do too.